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I was diagnosed with breast cancer in March 2015 during a CT scan prior to a hysterectomy. This op was due to a pelvic tumour, which turned out to be benign.

I was put on drugs to shrink the breast tumour, enabling me to have a lumpectomy and my post-op scans showed the cancer had gone. After my treatment was finished, I was told I’d be seen in a year.


My problem is, I don’t want to have a mammogram. My breast is still extremely tender with a lot of scar tissue.

My daughters both work for the NHS (paramedic and in a hospice) and at first were adamant that I should go. But, after seeing how badly this is affecting me, they said to leave it a while, then we could look at having either a CT or ultrasound privately, if necessary.

My mum, who has just passed, advised me not to go back, saying “the more they dig, the more they will find”.

I am so scared. My oncologist said I have no cause for concern now, but the pressure of having a mammogram on my extremely sore breast is causing me anxiety. I have also been diagnosed with PTSD (my son has a severe illness at just 35) and I feel so alone.

I know how important a follow-up is, but at the moment I really can’t do it. It’s taking over my life.

Aunty Lisa says

I think it’s a combination of fear and anxiety that’s making you feel this way. You’ve been through a lot and it takes its toll emotionally and mentally, as well as physically.


And it can be hard to see the positives when you feel this overwhelmed or to put things into perspective. A mammogram isn’t particularly pleasant – it’s uncomfortable – but it’s over in seconds.

At the moment, you’re putting yourself through terrible anguish by not having the test done. You can take your daughters with you for support and tell the nurses you’re worried and fearful of the pain.

Think of the relief you’ll feel when they tell you the results are fine, which in all probability they will be, according to your own doctor.

As for the scans – get advice from the unit you’re under to see if they would be acceptable. Counselling could really help you to deal with the trauma you’ve been through and the anxiety you’re feeling now. Speak to your GP to find out if you can be referred.

As I’m sure you know, my sister Bernie died as a result of breast cancer at just 52, leaving behind a husband and young daughter.

If there had been a moment in time when being offered a test could have made a difference to her, then all of her family and friends would have urged her to take it. And that’s what I think you should do – however scared you are.

I think the fear of not knowing is worse than having the test.

Good luck and let me know how you get on.








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