I’m a 46-year-old woman and like to think I’m still in good shape.
Five years ago my husband of 22 years traded me in for a newer model and I was left with a very unhappy life and two teenage children to bring up alone.
Last year my friend, who is also divorced, asked me to go on holiday abroad with her.
The first night we were there we got chatting to a group of young English lads.
We all had a lot to drink and were having a great time, so when one of them kissed me, we ended up snogging in a corner.
Inevitably, I went to bed with this lad.
I’d only ever slept with my ex-husband, so the experience was amazing.
My friend had gone off with another of these boys and when we compared notes the next day we both agreed we’d had a great time!
We were both free agents, after all.
Over the next week I had sex with several different lads and thought they were all really lovely.
But one day we were sitting on the veranda and heard them talking about us.
They were laughing and joking and describing to each other the most intimate details of what we’d done in bed.
They were calling us “scrubbers” and “old cows”. It was vile and really upsetting. I thought they really liked us.
I don’t feel I can trust another guy as long as I live and feel totally disgusted with myself.
What can I do?